relief/sadness/frustration/shock/"now-what?"
... running through the house. Maybe it's how quickly the holidays fly past with the constant stream of family and friends, entertaining and party-going. Not that I would actually change anything because I absolutely adore Christmas, but I kinda feel like it's a lot of hype....maybe too much build-up that the experience can't possibly compare with the pre-holiday excitement.
Maybe it's because I'm exhausted.
......this too shall pass.
Dinner tonight was a trial recreation of a beautiful potato leek soup that my friend Janice concocted.
It didn't turn out exactly as the original, however the variation with carrots adopted from one of my fav cookbooks of all time resulted in a totally yum-i-licious creamy concoction. Janet and Greta have a version of this recipe in their Crazy Plates cookbook
On another note, I have not exercised in a few weeks......hence the soup. I am a bad bad pseudo healthy person at present.....gone is the running and protein + veg dinners.....HELLO red wine! ....and chocolate. Ok, I know that I cannot continue to eat as I have the last 2 weeks, however it was a heck of a lotta fun! ....except there may be a little snugness to my pants at present.
On that note, New Years resolution #1........
Quiet please...
I will endeavour to eat. To become friends with the food I place in my body and stop beating myself up whenever I indulge in something purely for the pleasure of it. I will eat for nutrition and I will eat for energy...but I will also eat for pleasure and enjoy both the creating of the dish and the consumption of it.
Ok and another little bit....maybe a resolution...maybe not?
I want to let go of crazy. Not fun crazy or wild crazy.....the crazy that enters your life when you allow a self-indulgent person to continually make selfish choices that place you in situations surrounding you with drama.
I say "you", but it's not you, it's me. I want to end the drama. It might mean making some changes in the relationships to the people that are closest to me, but life is too short to be consumed by the bad decisions of others. I want to laugh more and celebrate happiness more. Perhaps re-committing myself to my book of joy....my gratitude journal....
....that is perhaps a good place to start.