Sunday, August 20, 2006

Why...........

We received the news this weekend that we had been suspecting, but dreading to hear. My uncle, who has been struggling with an undetermined illness for 2 years, has ALS. This disease will slowly attack his nervous system until he is unable to move and eventually even breathe. He is struggling with his mobility and his breathing has already become laboured. This is a monstrous diagnosis for a wonderful man.

I am struggling, now, to put into words how I feel about my uncle Bob. This should not be happening to him. While some people neglect their children and disregard their grandchildren, this man treats us as his own. To watch him with my kids, you would never know that they were not his own grandchildren. He is supportive and loving and has devoted his life to his family. He commented to me that he keeps thinking that this is a nightmare that he will wake up from........This is not fair.

so, my question is why? Why THIS man........why not the self-centered and ignorant man....... why not the man who neglects his own children and grandchildren.....why not the man who puts down others to make himself look better....why not the man who plays favorites between his children and grandchildren, and breeds bitterness and pain........it may sound cruel, but why not THAT man?

I am angry. I don't understand the 'plan'. Those who inspire love and support others, are made to suffer and are taken from us too early, while those who breed hatred and are spiteful and bitter, live without incident. It is too early for me to 'understand'......last night I cried......I still want to cry....but first I must feel this anger, and endure this incredible sadness.......

12 comments:

Carmen said...

I am sorry Kat!! I don't want to sound flip, but sometimes in life there are things that we are not meant to understand... Sometimes... But I totally empathize with what you are feeling. Be mad. Be sad. It is all healthy! HUGS HUGS HUGS to you!!!

Melissa said...

*hugs* kat!! things like this are SO hard to understand! and sometimes we never really even get to find out 'the plan'. stay strong!

KathyT said...

I'm so sorry Kat.

Heather said...

So sorry Kat. Hugs to you and your uncle. Totally hard to understand why things happen the way they do. Sometimes they are meant to be for some odd reason. HE only knows.

Tara said...

Hugs to you Kat, I am so sorry!!

Kimmie said...

hugs Ket to you and your family, and i also do not understand that part of the plan, it doesn't seem right to me either

Denise said...

There is so much we don't understand and probably never will. For sanity's sake, try to focus on the positive and be thankful. Thankful for the time we DO have with our loved ones, even though it may not be long enough. It's hard. It's not fair. Sadly, sometimes it's all we have. I'm so sorry for your sadness. {{{hugs}}}

patti said...

OH no Kat, I am so sorry to hear this awful news. More than you can possibly imagine. My thoughts and prayers are with your uncle and all the surrounding family.

Heather M. said...

Hugs, Kat. I wish I knew too.

Sue said...

Big hugs to you, my dear friend! I know this is very difficult for you and I understand your anger and confusion as to how people are chosen to leave our world and others, seemingly unworthy, are allowed to remain. I hope you find peace and can enjoy the time you have left with this wonderful man who has brought your family such tenderness and joy.
If I could take away your pain, I surely would.

MonaS! said...

I am sooooo sorry to hear this Kat! I will keep you and your family in my thots and prayers! HUGE ((((HUGS)))))

Julie said...

Hugs, Kat! I'm so sorry your Uncle is going through this, he sounds like a wonderful man, in time, I hope that's the part you remember and can smile about...after the anger that is so normal right now!!

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Why...........

We received the news this weekend that we had been suspecting, but dreading to hear. My uncle, who has been struggling with an undetermined illness for 2 years, has ALS. This disease will slowly attack his nervous system until he is unable to move and eventually even breathe. He is struggling with his mobility and his breathing has already become laboured. This is a monstrous diagnosis for a wonderful man.

I am struggling, now, to put into words how I feel about my uncle Bob. This should not be happening to him. While some people neglect their children and disregard their grandchildren, this man treats us as his own. To watch him with my kids, you would never know that they were not his own grandchildren. He is supportive and loving and has devoted his life to his family. He commented to me that he keeps thinking that this is a nightmare that he will wake up from........This is not fair.

so, my question is why? Why THIS man........why not the self-centered and ignorant man....... why not the man who neglects his own children and grandchildren.....why not the man who puts down others to make himself look better....why not the man who plays favorites between his children and grandchildren, and breeds bitterness and pain........it may sound cruel, but why not THAT man?

I am angry. I don't understand the 'plan'. Those who inspire love and support others, are made to suffer and are taken from us too early, while those who breed hatred and are spiteful and bitter, live without incident. It is too early for me to 'understand'......last night I cried......I still want to cry....but first I must feel this anger, and endure this incredible sadness.......

12 comments:

Carmen said...

I am sorry Kat!! I don't want to sound flip, but sometimes in life there are things that we are not meant to understand... Sometimes... But I totally empathize with what you are feeling. Be mad. Be sad. It is all healthy! HUGS HUGS HUGS to you!!!

Melissa said...

*hugs* kat!! things like this are SO hard to understand! and sometimes we never really even get to find out 'the plan'. stay strong!

KathyT said...

I'm so sorry Kat.

Heather said...

So sorry Kat. Hugs to you and your uncle. Totally hard to understand why things happen the way they do. Sometimes they are meant to be for some odd reason. HE only knows.

Tara said...

Hugs to you Kat, I am so sorry!!

Kimmie said...

hugs Ket to you and your family, and i also do not understand that part of the plan, it doesn't seem right to me either

Denise said...

There is so much we don't understand and probably never will. For sanity's sake, try to focus on the positive and be thankful. Thankful for the time we DO have with our loved ones, even though it may not be long enough. It's hard. It's not fair. Sadly, sometimes it's all we have. I'm so sorry for your sadness. {{{hugs}}}

patti said...

OH no Kat, I am so sorry to hear this awful news. More than you can possibly imagine. My thoughts and prayers are with your uncle and all the surrounding family.

Heather M. said...

Hugs, Kat. I wish I knew too.

Sue said...

Big hugs to you, my dear friend! I know this is very difficult for you and I understand your anger and confusion as to how people are chosen to leave our world and others, seemingly unworthy, are allowed to remain. I hope you find peace and can enjoy the time you have left with this wonderful man who has brought your family such tenderness and joy.
If I could take away your pain, I surely would.

MonaS! said...

I am sooooo sorry to hear this Kat! I will keep you and your family in my thots and prayers! HUGE ((((HUGS)))))

Julie said...

Hugs, Kat! I'm so sorry your Uncle is going through this, he sounds like a wonderful man, in time, I hope that's the part you remember and can smile about...after the anger that is so normal right now!!

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Why...........

We received the news this weekend that we had been suspecting, but dreading to hear. My uncle, who has been struggling with an undetermined illness for 2 years, has ALS. This disease will slowly attack his nervous system until he is unable to move and eventually even breathe. He is struggling with his mobility and his breathing has already become laboured. This is a monstrous diagnosis for a wonderful man.

I am struggling, now, to put into words how I feel about my uncle Bob. This should not be happening to him. While some people neglect their children and disregard their grandchildren, this man treats us as his own. To watch him with my kids, you would never know that they were not his own grandchildren. He is supportive and loving and has devoted his life to his family. He commented to me that he keeps thinking that this is a nightmare that he will wake up from........This is not fair.

so, my question is why? Why THIS man........why not the self-centered and ignorant man....... why not the man who neglects his own children and grandchildren.....why not the man who puts down others to make himself look better....why not the man who plays favorites between his children and grandchildren, and breeds bitterness and pain........it may sound cruel, but why not THAT man?

I am angry. I don't understand the 'plan'. Those who inspire love and support others, are made to suffer and are taken from us too early, while those who breed hatred and are spiteful and bitter, live without incident. It is too early for me to 'understand'......last night I cried......I still want to cry....but first I must feel this anger, and endure this incredible sadness.......

12 comments:

Carmen said...

I am sorry Kat!! I don't want to sound flip, but sometimes in life there are things that we are not meant to understand... Sometimes... But I totally empathize with what you are feeling. Be mad. Be sad. It is all healthy! HUGS HUGS HUGS to you!!!

Melissa said...

*hugs* kat!! things like this are SO hard to understand! and sometimes we never really even get to find out 'the plan'. stay strong!

KathyT said...

I'm so sorry Kat.

Heather said...

So sorry Kat. Hugs to you and your uncle. Totally hard to understand why things happen the way they do. Sometimes they are meant to be for some odd reason. HE only knows.

Tara said...

Hugs to you Kat, I am so sorry!!

Kimmie said...

hugs Ket to you and your family, and i also do not understand that part of the plan, it doesn't seem right to me either

Denise said...

There is so much we don't understand and probably never will. For sanity's sake, try to focus on the positive and be thankful. Thankful for the time we DO have with our loved ones, even though it may not be long enough. It's hard. It's not fair. Sadly, sometimes it's all we have. I'm so sorry for your sadness. {{{hugs}}}

patti said...

OH no Kat, I am so sorry to hear this awful news. More than you can possibly imagine. My thoughts and prayers are with your uncle and all the surrounding family.

Heather M. said...

Hugs, Kat. I wish I knew too.

Sue said...

Big hugs to you, my dear friend! I know this is very difficult for you and I understand your anger and confusion as to how people are chosen to leave our world and others, seemingly unworthy, are allowed to remain. I hope you find peace and can enjoy the time you have left with this wonderful man who has brought your family such tenderness and joy.
If I could take away your pain, I surely would.

MonaS! said...

I am sooooo sorry to hear this Kat! I will keep you and your family in my thots and prayers! HUGE ((((HUGS)))))

Julie said...

Hugs, Kat! I'm so sorry your Uncle is going through this, he sounds like a wonderful man, in time, I hope that's the part you remember and can smile about...after the anger that is so normal right now!!